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Covid getting in the way of EVERYTHING!

Updated: Sep 23, 2021

Some of you wonderful readers may be wondering why I haven't posted in a couple of weeks. Well, the easiest explanation is simply Covid. As you may be able to tell with the title of this post, covid is getting in the way of everything. Seems like everything that I plan to do gets ripped away. I know that it's been this way for everyone for the last while but it didn't quite sink in until a few weeks back. Everyone that I talk to about this is so optimistic! They just keep telling me that it will work out - that it's okay. But it just doesn't feel that way.

A couple of weeks ago I announced that it was official - that I was going to serve with the Mercy Ships in Senegal. I was so excited about being finally approved but that excitement was short lived. A few days after they sent me the acceptance email they released internally that the Africa Mercy was not returning to Senegal until 2022 now. This means that I will not be allowed to serve for a minimum of 10 months. Meaning that I gave up my own place and sold all my stuff prematurely. God knows I love my parents but it was huge shock finding out that I was going to be living at home for the foreseeable future. I think it was just as much of a shock for them too but they tend to be okay with having me home.

There is a possibility that I will be able to meet up with the Mercy Ship crew and join in on the programs they are currently running. The downside is that if they stay in Spain, where they currently are, then I will not have that option. Spain has completely shut down the country and no one but other Spaniards are allow to enter and stay. My only hope is that Spain will not allow Mercy Ships to stay in the country since the crew comprises of over 300 people from 50 different nations. If this happens then I might be able to meet up with them where ever they head off to next.

The point is that covid sucks. Everyone knows and understands that but it is finally sinking in now. Up until this point I had a plan and a goal to look forward to. But now? I have no job to keep me occupied, no friends to hangout with, and no place to call my own. Covid took all this away from me. The only thing that is holding me together is that I think God is testing me again (plus my family. I can always count on them to be there when I don't really feel like myself).

I think the reason why this is all hitting me now is that the first year of the pandemic I was so occupied by my recovery and finishing my degree. I feel amazing and I received my outrageously expensive piece of paper saying I have a BA but there is nothing left to look forward to. I had put Mercy Ships on the horizon but covid has taken that away for the time being.

I am trying to stay positive but that is the ultimate reason why I have been afk (away from my keyboard). The last few weeks my mental health has been on a giant rollercoaster. I have been going from feeling like I can climb a mountain to feeling like there is no point to getting out of my comfy bed (there were mornings where I would lay there for 4 or 5 hours before actually getting up). I didn't want to publish any of this until I knew what the plan was but I am learning that I have to be okay that there is no plan when covid is around. All I can do is hope that everyone does their part and get the vaccine so a new normal can emerge from this chaotic cesspool of covid.

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